The Rocky, Bumpy Road to getting "There"

I am thinking about another Leunig poem I use as a metaphor for my life.  It is called Getting there.  I have pasted it here for your enjoyment.  A little man sets off to "There" and it basically states that the only way to get there is to keep going as far as you can insinuating that there is no "There".  So I often think about this when I am thinking about goals I have and the "There's I want to experience and am reminded time and time again that there is no better then here and once you get there you are in fact here and here is all you have.  So you set a "There" goal.  One of mine at the moment is to get to 69kg before the end of this round.  Once I am at 69kg, I will sing and dance and let it all out but then I will go on and on.  Off to another There which may or not be another weight loss goal.  My point is I am reminded that I am perfect now and my here is just fine.  When I had the "There" goal to run a half marathon I have to say that it was the training and journey that was the most interesting, intriguing, fun, challenging and pooed all over the actual event.  I liked the fact that I did it and loved many moment of the hour and 56 minutes I bathed in as I pranced to my There but then it was over and I was like all "now what?".  I think my point is here that it really is important to enjoy the journey.  How does this refer to my goal to drink less wine?  As I battle to have yet another alcohol free night knowing that here would be so much better with a wine I need to stop for a moment I need to bathe myself in the great feelings I am having now. Well maybe I need to create a few because I am not totally sure things wouldn't be better if I had a drink.  nah, it wouldn't, I'd have lost the battle and allowed to succumb yet again to Boozy Brain.  I am better without it.  Will I ever get to a "There" where I will be free of the demon voice inside me begging to give it a drink?  I am not sure but for now, here I am basking in the glory of another alcohol free night, pondering and enjoying some personal freedom to reflect and enjoy that my Here is fabulous.  What's that kids??? Yeah sure I will get you some muffins and yoghurt.  Did you just hear a buzzer? My time "here" is over.

Epic Weightloss Fail

Well the news is just in and it is not great.  I reluctantly stepped on the scales this morning only to find that I have gained a whopping 2.2kg in the past two weeks.  AGHHHHHHH.  Yes it frightened me, I tried going to the toilet and coming back only to find a nominal change.  Oh know, I have to own this gain.  I have drank far too much and nibbled my way up the scales.  Oh dear, oh dear, oh dear, what a bumber.  Two weeks ago I didn't turn my car around, I kept partying and eating and playing and forgetting I am supposed to be losing weight.  AGHHHHHH.  So where to now?  Is it too late to turn the car around?  NO!! If I continue doing what I am doing I will only get heavier and heavier, is that what you want, Kate?  I see exactly what the error in my ways was so what am I going to do about it NOW?  I am not going to turn the car around becasue for too long I have not being getting it right.  I have only kinda been getting it right and that will not do.  I am actually going to take the next EXIT and change a few things  I just downloaded the food diary, ate the prescibed Brekky, lined up a run with my buddy for later this afternoon, threw out the delicious truffles I was devouring in secret and I am making some CHANGES.  I have that tune in my head "Ch Ch Ch Ch Changes..." and I am not going to let this beat me.  I am committed to CHANGING my drinking habits and snacking habits  and I am going to do what it takes to get my weight under 70kg before the end of this round.  It is not too late.  I can do this, I know I can, I know can, I know I can.

Come on baby, it is time for a change!!!!