How many times am I going to fall?

Yep I will keep going, I am in agony, when am I going to stop this awful rollercoaster?

99% is a bitch - 100% is a breeze

I have just completed a 8 week challenge with pretty pathetic results. A few centimetres here and there but nothing to boast about.  Great work with Lani though as she has come so far and that is something to celebrate but that is not what I want to reflect on right now. Although she freakin' rocks and I am so proud of her.  I will leave that story for next time.

Some would say that change takes time and all those bull shit reassuring words but what it comes down to for me i think is my commitment factor.

Today I read this quote and it moved me. "99% is a bitch - 100% is a breeze." It's true. Kinda sorta almost making a real commitment to something is *way* harder than really making a 100% commitment. What do I need to make a nonnegotiable, 100% commitment to in your life? I have always been the sort of person who probably has a 90 percent commitment to things and I leave myself the painful and exhausting room of 10% to just make life as hard as I can.  My thought was at least I am 90 percent of the way.  Ha!  I thought I was doing it to go easy on myself but its not easy.  It makes you question yourself all the time and so much of what I do is annoying because I have to go through the rigmarole of talking myself into so many things.

I have noticed myself recently babbling on with my "tormenter" as Margie likes to refer to him as.  We meet in the evenings when I talk myself out of having a drink, every freakin night.  Its the nights that I simply say, no, you aren't having that and I leave it at that when I feel the most relaxed and find peace.  That is because I commit.  Can it be as easy and as hard as that?  Just be 100 percent committed.

Notice the thought,  commit 100 percent to your cause and the just Freakin do it, be it and live it.

Question becomes what does it actually look like?

https://www.mindbodygreen.com/0-1396/99-Is-a-Bitch-100-Is-a-Breeze.html

http://www.smh.com.au/lifestyle/health-and-wellbeing/the-100-per-cent-rule-the-simple-advice-that-changed-my-life-20160825-gr16da.html

Making Infographics

Look what I did with an interesting website called Canva.   I should probably put my name on it. I am right into making infographics and trying to consolidate the thousands of things that roll around in my head.  I learn so much but often I find myself asking myself, what did I just read.  Or I do this course or that course and wonder what the hell am I getting out of it.  If I were to do an inventory of the current courses and workshops and coaching I have on the boiler at the moment you would all say its a bit much and you are probably right but I do need to make the most of it all. Maybe I will do an infographic about all the things I am doing at the moment.  Ha Ha.

I am particularly proud of this one, done on WORD