IF YOU WANT TO LOSE WEIGHT YOU CAN'T DRINK WINE

So here I am on day 4 of my holiday and I am sitting back enjoying YET ANOTHER glass of wine.  WHILST BEING DEDICATED TO TRANSFORMING MY BODY.  Am I serious?  I went hard on the exercise today so I can sit back with my family and enjoy some wine without feeeling toooooo guilty.  I am ridden with guilt.  I am reminded of a Homer Simpson who cried his way through eating his delicious pet lobster Pinky.  I want it, I love it, it feels great and it is so bad for my weight loss challenge.  Yes I am saying that all in one breathe.  SO WHAT DO i DO ABOUT IT? Have another sip and sit back committed to enjoying the sips and indulge in the happiness that is wine.  I burnt 1700 callories in order to do this and HELL I am going to enjoy it.  All my love...

Mindfulness - beating the negative thoughts and actions

So I am thinking about mindfulness today and how helpful it can be in this journey to beat my battle with food.  I checked out my mind today and man was it full of some mess and didn't that mess up everything.  My interactions with my kids, my resolve to eat clean, my mood, my facial expressions and concentration and tiredness levels.  I seriouly saw myself (as if from above) go to the kitchen and attempt to find relief in some Kraft FREE cheese and grissini sticks.  I ate to seek comfort, OMG!   I never knew that negative thoughts could be so destructive.  What I "should" have done, (here comes the shoulda, coulda, woulda didn't's;) was observed my flow of negative thoughts with a non-judgemental attitude feeling grateful my kids are relatively healthy and nice, forgiving them for their blatant disregard for my clean house and hugging them as if for the first time.  Oh the perfect world, is this a place we can inhabit?  Well on the flip side I didn't drink and my biggest splurge was a HUGE handful of sultanas.

You create your reality

This could be an after shot, 

Well still moving along in the weight loss challenge.  Had such a big blow to my professional ego yesterday it saw me turn to my pal wine and although a little down hearted I took it in my stride.  I should add that prior to wining I went down to the oval and did the Thursday Outdoor session.  I can burn off 800 calories, just need to keep the mission in mind.

To eat only as much as required to allow for a loss of the flabby stuff with a focus on gaining a lighter body full of boundless vitality and strength.

 Went for a two and half hour trek around Mt Coot-ha day to soothe the soul and am feeling much better now, thanks.  I know I can do this, moment by moment.  I woke up this morning early and put my yoga mat on the ground and finally did some moves, a bit of heart connecting and I was on fire.  I still am, although that may be the sunburn from being out in the sun from (9:30 - 12..)

So speaking about creating your own reality I am inspired to share some thoughts.  If you think people are being unsupportive you will see the unsupportive ones (and even make people who may be doing their best to support you seem unsupportive). If you think you need to hide behind t-shirts because you need to hide something, you won't feel good in anything else.  Ever since I decided to transform my body I am happy to flaunt what I have now, I feel less like hiding behing the big shirt.  Oh and by the way the big shirts do not really hide that much, its all still in there and while your working out your bits are exposed.

I am ready to face my demons

Well along with many team members in the 12WBT I am boasting a large loss since weighing in last week from 89.5 - 87.5kg.  I told you I would get to overweight quickly, no longer obese (phew).  I soooo know how to do this weight loss stuff and know exactly why I always fail.  I will not fail this time.  I want this so much.  I can see so many things in my favour. 

1. Supportive husband.  I think I almost create the façade that he is un-supportive.  I create my reality and  I am in this for me. I am finally going to stop blaming him for sabotaging me.  It is all about your mindset. 
2. Dedicated to taking a positive approach to my weight loss journey.
3. Excited about connecting with like - minded people.
4. Really willing to face reality, I do need to lose weight and I do not feel okay in a large, over weight body.
5. Know that I have been using excuses not to exercise and I have no excuses, none, seriously.  I have a freakin gym downstairs.

26 Days and a new mindset will be locked in...go me

Several years ago NASA wanted to see how astronauts coped with spatial disorientation while in space. So they took a group of astronauts and put them in zero gravity for an extended period of time.
The scientists also made the astronauts wear a pair of 'special' glasses that made them see the world completely upside down!
The astronauts experienced a dramatic surge in stress and anxiety in the beginning.
Then gradually, this stress and anxiety subsided. In fact...
After about 26 days, the astronauts got completely used to the 'upside down' vision - as if it was normal.
What the scientists discovered was that the human brain can acquire completely new ways of operating surprisingly quickly.
The good news is....this means you can form completely new habits, patterns and behaviours faster than you think.
In fact, as this study demonstrates you can create as totally new perspective on life - in as little as 26 to 30 days.

Day one - Am I ready?

Okay today is the beginning of a new life.  I admitted to Brett that I am going to spend the next 12 weeks getting some weight off my body and his response is make sure I get the house in order first.  AGGHHHHHH>.  There will always be soemething else to do so I am not buying into that.  I want to feel good when sit down and do that stuff :).  I should be doing tax stuff as I type this but it seems so much more appealing to indulge in some navel gazing.  Really important to get yourself in the right head space with this weight losing stuff, it takes time to get into gear. 

I have to say this is going to be a challenge for me.  It is day one and I have yet to exercise cos Lani is home sick.  AGGGHHHH .  I have been sitting at the computer for nearly three hours reading forums,  making a collage of pics of my lardiness, planning exercise and meals.  All of that is good but what about all the other stuff?  I have an assignment to do, planning for school, tax stuff and I sit here being totally unproductive.  I guess some would say what I am doing is important but I have to work out how to find the balance.  This is not a good start.  Oh man.  Okay well it is only 12 pm so I have a half a day to see some improvements and get into the right head space.  How about I try and plan for a more successful next half day.  Where to start.....

The word "fat"

Oh god I am 1kg into the obese range. I am OBESE. I read this article in search of whether it is helpful to refer to myself as fat  http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-10789553. It reckons that saying we are fat makes it more personal.  I have to say I feel happier referring to myself as FAT as opposed to OBESE.  Okay  I am not going to be OBESE for long as I only have to lose a kilo to get back in the OVERWEIGHT category.  Either way I am Fat and I am okay with that.  I really am.    I am not sure whether my scales are accurate because the children threw them in the bath the other day but this is serious business.  I am OBESE.  I am going to make an appointment to get my measurements done at the gym.  I have been so scared to face the reality of my lardiness but I have to do this now.  I have told people now.  It is time.

I am overweight and ready to clean up my stuff

from nataliedee.com

I have been getting invitations to join the 12 week body transformation team with Michelle Bridges since it began last year and I am ready to tidy my body up now. I have been starting a weight-loss journey for over a year now and barely make it through a week of good habits before I lose focus, become complacent, crave chocolate or wine and become a victim to my rather full on life. Weighing in today 4 kilograms heavier than last year is a definite slap in the face. Sitting down and feeling the enormous spare tyre around my middle is yet another eye opener. Turning around to inspect my rear side and realising I look like those fat ladies I secretly cringe at on the beach tells me it is time for a change. I realised last night I accidentally got fat again and I AM NOT A FAT PERSON ( I just look fat). I am a very fit fatty who has not paid enough attention to my calorie intake and have allowed things like wine, cheese and nibblies to get the better of my body.

I am a 38 year old mother of two (6 & 8 years), working part time as primary school teacher whilst studying my Master of Education. My husband is a national sales manager and spends a few days every week away. This year has been particularly challenging as my daughter has been fighting every minor ailment possible meaning a lot of my Me time has been taken up caring for her. The only reason I have the time to do all  this is because I am home from work yet again caring for her while she suffers a high fever and gastro.

My mission is to prove to myself yet again that regardless of my life circumstances I can achieve what I believe I can achieve. I have decided that I needed something else to help me remain committed as alone I am filled with too many rationalisation which have held me back.

Go me!!!