Stopping Alcohol

So I have finally taken the plunge and pledged to stop drinking alcohol.  I thought about saying for the rest of the year, for one year, for a month but have decided that I have to say forever because as long as I say I am quitting for this amount of time and there is still an inkling that I may ingest it again I am not going to be free of the demon that plagues so many of my daily thoughts.

I have got myself so far along the road to freeing myself from the clasps of that guy I call Boozy Brain but I still feel trapped. I still feel like I am victim to the voice in my head trying to convince that I can control the habit and I dont't have a problem.   I love wine, it makes me happy but with this in mind I also know that you sometimes need to set free the things you love and if they come back they were yours and if they don't they never were.  Seriously, wine is my friend.  Who am I kidding.  Each drop brings me closer to Cancer, and depletes my brain cells and increases my fat cells making me one dopey, fat sick woman.  I want to meet my personal standards and by that I mean being the healthy person I know I can be.  That does not mean ingesting a bottle a wine most nights and hiding away what had become destructive.  Sure I am not at rock bottom, not even close really.  My hubby and I get along pretty well, the kids barely know I drink, I get up everyday and get things done (yes I could do better), I run, I think, I work and I inspire but little do many know the hold that alcohol has on me.

Not anymore.  I am choosing freedom and as I said in my written pledge.  It is time to be true to me.

My buddies rock and doing True Grit with these guys was unreal!

We all can say we had the best time and greatness was achieved my all.  Hence the team name ALL GREAT. 25 people joined my team on July 13 to take themselves to places they had never gone before and we all have stories to tell but all come with the most satisfied grins and smirks of achievement.  I highly recommend going and giving these obstacle challenges a go.  You will come out braver, stronger and enthralled with your achievements.  Yay Team ALL GREAT!  See you at Stampede on Sunday 15th September where we will do it all again.

Celebrating 40 years of Greatness by being my Greatest

Last Monday I turned 40 and have now officially
moved into another phase of my life, some call it Middle Age some call it another Passage and others just say another decade.  Whatever you call it I have chosen to make a big deal about it and celebrate where I have been and look forward to where I am going.  I know that I have achieved a lot but the secret side of me wishes that there would have been some all mighty switch when I actually turned 40 and things will have been different. Unfortunately I did not prepare myself for such a transformation and so now have to accept that there is going to be some adjusting to do.  It will not all happen in one foul swoop.  I was kidding myself that I was going to all of a sudden wake up enlightened and ready to be a better version of myself.  These things need to be done with some level of organisation and planning.  I do question why I did not choose that planning approach but I guess I am still stuck in some bad habits where the path of comfort, wine, less thinking is far more enticing.  I have really dropped my bundle in the past two weeks and have allowed all my bad habits to sneak back in.  How does that happen? Some would say that it has been a little full on brewing up to my big day and I totally felt like letting loose, being carefree and indulgent but why did I let the things I know are so bad for me creep back in?  What happen?  Ah I could sit here trying to analyse it but instead I think I am going to use my bulging stomach, cloudy head and messy disposition to be my guiding light.  I need to develop my Primary foods, my spiritualism, my career, my relationships and some of these areas need attention.  So for today...  I have contributed to my good life my
1. Getting up before the sun to run with my buddy
2. Taken time out to learn something new
3. Shared some joy with others
4. Contemplated what I need to do to align with healthy me
5. Said no to sausage sandwich
6. Apologised


To find your mission in life is to discover the intersection between your heart’s deep gladness and the world’s deep hunger (Frederick Beekner).