Breaking Free

I am in between sizes now and I feel excited but I also have some demon inside me conspiring against me.  "Drink that wine, eat that extra food, who cares you are an 80kg woman stay here, you like it here."  This is where all your clothes fit and you are comfortable.  Okay comfortablish.  I soooo want to embrace smaller me but for some reason I have dropped the ball in the past three weeks and lost my momentum.  The main culprit is my over consumption of wine and if I continue to do this I will steadily gain back the weight I have lost.  WHAT AM I DOING?  I really have to work on this wine issue.  You know what I do now to try and feel okay about the wine drinking?  Wake up and not eat breakfast and go for a run to run off what I have drunk last night!  I do not want to be in this spiral.  I hate waking up every morning feeling bad about drinking the night before, I hate it!  It has a hold on me and I want to break free.  I want to break free from the hold.  Yes I do, I really do. 

What am I going to do?  Well today is the first day of the rest of my life so I may as well start now.  I am committed to eating clean today and only feeding myself noursihing food.  I love you body and I want to treat you well.

Crucial Time

What a journey~ I started this program with so many mixed emotions and I have enjoyed quite a gentle roller coaster ride through the 12 weeks.  I feel successful, having lost 11.5% of my body weight.  I have lost 44cm around my body and I am feeling better.  Today I ran with so much vitality as I bounded along the pavement 10 kilos lighter.  I can not amp enough on how excited I am.  I have taken a vow of being the healthy version of myself and with that has come a lighter version too.  I have met all my goals and surpassed what I hoped to achieve.  Now!  Where am I headed?  Well first off to a healthy BMI of 25.  I did not follow the program exactly which is why I am not boasting the loss I could have had but that is okay for me because coming from where I have been has me positioned perfectly for today.  Better, Brighter, Lighter, and commited to being the best version of me.  I have 6.2 kilos to go to be in the healthy BMI and I am commited to going there.  Hopefully I can keep doing what I am doing and it will come naturally.  Fingers crossed.  Watch this space.

My December Promise