I am now almost 44 and this blog is still somewhat alive. I am still a wreck but I have worked out that most of the best people are so I am fairly okay with that but I am always dedicated to continuous personal growth and I think I am a better person than I was yesterday and that is all I can ask for. I still love my kids more than anything and navigate single motherhood with the fairies but we are doing okay.
My name is Kate and I am 41 years old, I started this blog in September 2011. I am currently separated from my husband and we share care of my kids Oskar (12) and Lani (10). We live in a leafy Inner West suburb of Brisbane and enjoy all the bliss of suburban life. I teach primary school kids part-time and fill my life with kids stuff, exercise, friends and philosophising about how to be my best me and advocating for a calmer planet.
I decided to open this BLOG as a team member in the 12 week body transformation with Michelle Bridges starting September 12 2011. I was ready to tidy up my body and get rid of the last 20kg that have been lingering. At my heaviest I weighed 115kg with the help of The Diet Club, Weight Watchers and my gym I lost 30kg but had fluctuated around 10kg with yo yo dieting ever since. Things had got bad cos I gained 4 kg in 3 months and knew something had to change. I weighed in at 89.5k and knew I was not going to be 90kg again. My plan was to track my journey here in the hope of keeping on the straight and narrow and recording the journey for reflective purposes. I have proved time and time again that I can successfully do these types of things but I am looking to alter everything this time in a hope of transforming my body and mind for a more content and connected woman whose body is in the healthy weight range. After the 1st challenge I did successfully lose 11.5% of my body and had learnt a lot. I then went into stage 2 of the transformation and went in a place I had been before but usually do not succeed. The quest was to get to 75kg and then beyond? That was huge for me because I was changing in many ways, I have new clothes and a healthier body. I know I am on the edge of my glory I just have to get my head in the right place. After completing Round 2 I made it to 71kg for a week or two. From then it is just been another roller coaster where my weight fluctuates 10kg. I was was re-diagonosed with Bipolar in mid 2012 and have lived the up and down world ever since. Sometimes I am great and doing amazing stuff other times I am just struggling to keep my head above the water. It has been challenging because the big side effect for me and the medication is weight gain and so I have just yo yo'd. I have also had issues drinking too much why and always wishing I could be doing life differently. I have made some big changes now...
Its 2015 is a time for change. I have separated from my husband and I am working to heal myself. I a big thing I can do for myself is change my relationship with food. I want to naturally eat well all the time instead of do it in dribs and drabs and then over eat and ruin it all. A very good reflection of what has happened to my life comes from the way I eat and the way my body looks and feels. I am smiling and waving though and have decided to get focused.
New challenges are in my arena at the moment but I am not giving up. Every day I am breathing and working on finding and nurturing my heart.
