OKAY 14 Weeks of no Alcohol challenge begins HERE and NOW

Just because I am not living the life I want to be living I have decided that it is not over yet.  I really thought because I didn't enter my 40's all healthy and well I might as well screw it all and wait until I am 50?  Lucky I got over that pathetic excuse.  So I have decided that being 40 was going to be a bit of a growth and evolutionary process for me and I was not just going to wake up on my 40th and be everything I wanted to be that makes me feel like I am heading in the direction of greatness.  Perfection takes time and I know it will be an evolving process but I think if I can stand up at my 41st birthday and say I used being 40 to help me evolve into a person I am proud to look at in the mirror I am doing GREAT.  So time to set the challenge.  I love playing with numbers so this is how it looks. Before I start I reckon this is the 14th time I have strongly decided to stop drinking. I started this challenge on the 14/4/14  hangover free and ready.  It is 14 weeks until my birthday and I will be 41.  So during that time I will be setting myself mini challenges that relate to living a fulfilling life without alcohol.  I know to succeed I need to find new ways to spend my time and make myself feel great and one of the best places for that is engrossed in writing and inspiring and coming up with routines and programs.  So to anyone who cares here is where my challenge begins.  My challenge for this lovely commitment free week of school holidays is to attempt to create my 14 week challenge.  So number 1 challenge is to create a meaningful program of challenges.  I am off to research what that may look like.  Within week 1 I will also need to create my mission and reasons for why I am doing this.  I will work on that later.
GO  ME!!

Coping Juice

Oh this image says it all.  I am not drinking wine, I am drinking coping juice.  Question is...am I coping now that I am drinking the coping juice?  Has wine helped me cope? In some form or fashion it has but am I happy and proud of the person I am?  So you might be coping but you are using a substance that it not good for you and therefore causes you to not feel proud and positive that you are being true to yourself.  I am true to myself, I just do things that are not aligned with the person I would like to be.  Do you get what I am saying? The coping juice is only vaguely temporary and I say I am coping because I get up the next day and I run, I work, I manage my family and do all the things to appear to be coping.  I am not coping.  I am not getting the parenting thing right, I still can't seem to create the routine and structure we all need to thrive and at the end of the day instead of sitting down and evaluating how I went and what is happening I run to my beloved coping juice.  So I think the jury is out.  Unless someone like me cares a awful whole lot, nothings going to get better, it's not.