I wrote this to Chris in response to the Optimal Living Seminar I went to on Feb 5. I was a little disheartened by the fact that I didn’t seem to have the motivation and drive to get into what I needed to do straight away. I guess for me the fact that I have quite a lot going on in my personal life doesn’t help. In reflection, I can see that I really need to bite off smaller pieces. So for this week in order to get up earlier I have committed to at least two wake up walks. A wake up walk is a 15 minute walk around the block at 5:30 to help get my motor running.
Here is what I wrote
I am so excited about the fact that you are giving participants an opportunity to meet with you to consolidate all the great gems we learnt at Saturdays workshop by helping them draw up a blue print. As the very lucky winner of the 3 months of coaching I can only begin to imagine how great this is going to be for my life. I am so grateful, excited and humbled about that win. As for my Sunday, Id like to say that I was revved up but things weren’t as great as I wish that could have been. It started great debriefing with my best friend Deborah who came along too and we were very excited about everything we had gained from the day. It just hasn’t been quick to translate to my very tumultuous life. I feel proud that I got up early and walked with her and I had some very good quality time with my daughter but the rest of the day was annoying. I was moody, i had great intentions, but I procrastinated and got bogged down in usual Sunday housework etc and I was buggered and did not end up doing anywhere near as much as I needed to so that my week would run smoothly. What was that about? I am sure there is a name for it.
I am feeling quite relieved that a good friend posted a video from Mel Robbins about motivation being garbage today. Very serendipitous I think. Thank bloody god I saw it as I now see that I am not a failure for not being all inspired straight away and changing everything all in one foul swoop. That was never going to happen and would be very unrealistic anyway, I know that. I loved what you guys shared but in my messy life it is going to be tricky to implement it, as I have quite a few habits to break. As Mel quotes I need to break it down to the little things and remember that it comes down to my little decisions, decision making is the key. Like the decision I made to sit here and type to you as opposed to collapsing exhausted on the couch. The decision to go to the gym tonight to support my daughter when all I really wanted to do was chill. Exercise is one of my non-negotiables but sometimes I tend to over do it. So lucky me. I get to chat to you, do my BP and map out a bit of direction. I can’t believe you want me to make a life projection of where Id like to be in 7 years. My life is filled with red herrings that I allow to get in my way of living my whole hearted life. Not anymore.
So there it is. I hope what I have said makes sense.
I look forward to the next instalment.
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