Today is New Year Day and there is so much energy out there just waiting to be sucked in. Everywhere people are revealing and celebrating this new beginning. Every hour I feel this energy just lifting me up. I have spent the past 24 hours in deep reflection as I worked hard to find a way to start 2015 from a new place of love and peace. I have had so much anger, hurt, shame, guilt and bitterness poisoning my soul. I am choosing not to let that in anymore. Last year was yucky and I am pleased that I can say goodbye to it. I want to kick its sorry arse far away., my picture shows me farwelling 2014 with the bird last night. I feel though that today all is well and that the past hurt and pain of 2014 has gone up in smoke. I know that may not be the case for others but I am choosing to no longer let that bother me. I am filled with bright anticipation as we enter this new year. I know that I am going to have to work hard to reap the benefits of the limitless possibilities that are there for growth and expansion but if I can be true to me I believe anything is possible. Now I am feeling excited and I want these words to be rich and dense with meaning and not just fleeting thoughts that will go out the window with my next encounter with the outside world. I have indeed spent New Years alone. I went and hugged my kids but returned to my new home to welcome in the new year alone. I rocked in the new year in my swinging egg chair and felt a deep sense of calm. I am not sad. This is just the way things are right now and I have to live with it but I know I am doing myself no favours if I wallow and continue to live in my poor me and my shitty circumstances mentality.
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